Hillary here, thanks for reading my entry blog post about my log I am going to be posting weekly! I am excited to share my journey with you all here and hope that you’ll follow along! If you have any specific questions for me, feel free to send them via email through our website and I would be happy to answer them! Without further ado…
Week 1 recount of TMS treatment with the Anxiety Protocol with Brainsway:
Day 1: Going into the first day of treatment my nerves were very high. After all, I’ve been coaching patients through their mental health journey with TMS treatments and I longed for it to be my turn; now it is! I had /have anxiety about getting a treatment for anxiety. You would think after being a TMS Tech at the center here I would be well versed in everything, which I am, but when it comes to yourself its a whole different ball game. Going into treatment as a patient and not a tech is MUCH different. I was nervous, anxious and filled with so many “what if’s?” What if this treatment doesn’t work for me? What if I am one of the percentage of people whom it doesn’t work for? But knowing that I could be part of the large percentage of people it works for, makes it all worth it. Trying to keep a positive outlook on HOPING to feel better, for me, is key.
The first appointment doctor was in to set up my treatment and find my “prescription.” The mapping to find my motor threshold was anything less than comfortable, but tolerable. You have to sit as straight up as possible and resist tension while doctor pushes the cap down onto your head and sends small electromagnetic pulses to find the best location for treatment. Once we found the correct spot, we went on to discover my lowest possible threshold. It’s a weird feeling when your body can’t control small movements in your fingers and face. It’s a strange little twitch. Kind of like when you go to the doctor and they check your reflexes with the rubber tool, that’s the best way I can describe it.
Once everything was set, I braced for treatment to start. The Anxiety protocol is much different than the Depression protocol for TMS. The “thumping” aka. electromagnetic waves for the Anxiety protocol is like a metronome that musicians use. The sound of the waves plus the “air conditioning” that is coming out of the cap is very relaxing. As I sat in the chair for the first few minutes, it truly felt like it wasn’t ever going to end. but as it went on, I felt my body relaxing and my mind zoning on the somewhat relaxing soothe from the air conditioned cap, along with the constant tapping of the electromagnetic waves. Knowing this all will hopefully be worth it and I will feel better after 36 days of treatment, or sooner…I am so lucky to be on this journey to better mental health for myself, and those around me. Here’s to becoming the best version of myself I can truly be.
Day 1 Post-Treatment thoughts:
I didn’t notice anything huge for after effects of treatment. No headache, a little sore on my head for maybe 20 minutes post treatment, then nothing! Notably felt relaxed after treatment and content which is kind of generally unheard of for me to notice that I actually feel relaxed. Looking forward to treatment tomorrow!
Day 2: Went into treatment feeling very optimistic. I didn’t take any ibprofin like I did the first day and I could really tell it felt more strong and somewhat uncomfortable than yesterday when I took 4 ibprofin but I couldn’t even come close to saying it hurts. It’s more of annoying and slightly uncomfortable during treatment with the constant “knocks” on your head. For the Anxiety protocol, it’s much different than for depression. It constantly sends the electromagnetic waves into your brain every two seconds, and the sound resembles a tick-tock-tick-tock. I was surprised by today how it felt without taking any prepratory medications as this was something I was worried about. I don’t plan to take them every day in the future since I don’t seem to need them.
Treatment seems to go MUCH faster when you talk through your treatment or have something to distract you, like a game on your phone, or watching a TV show. I suggest to anyone who is doing TMS to talk to your tech dyring treatment because it really makes the time go by in a blink. Especially if you are doing the anxiety protocol, 11 minutes longer than the major depressive disorder protocol.
Day 2 Post-Treatment thoughts:
I noticed after treatment that my mind just felt “lighter” like there’s almost a weight lifted off my shoulders. It’s a good feeling, I hope it sticks. We will see how the rest of the week goes. No noticed sensitivity on my head after treatment!
Day 3:
I noticed yesterday and today I woke up in a good mood. Which is really unheard of for me. I normally wake up in a bad mood, not wanting to take up or to get out of bed. That’s a HUGE win in my book. Today, treatment felt like it was hitting a higher spot than the previous two treatments, but that’s normal. I also noticed it was much easier to talk through treatment today and be able to not “think” about it as much as while it was going on like the past two days. I also didn’t notice an iron taste in my mouth like during the first two treatments.
Day 3 Post-Treatment thoughts:
I felt really groggy for about an hour or so, after that, I felt very motivated and energized to do anything I wanted to which usually my anxiety prevents me from doing so. Went grocery shopping which caused some anxiety, but it typically does so that doesn’t really surprise me.
It’s not 11:20PM-8 hours post treatment and I feel relaxed and have lots of energy and not ready to fall into my bed for the night like I typically do. I felt the same last night, too! Incredible.
Day 4: Feeling like I am a “normal” person. Did not wake up filled with anxiety about the day and tasks I need to complete. Actually wanting to do things. Treatment was easy today. I noticed that some days treatment seems stronger and others it doesn’t so knowing that sleep and how much or less really makes a difference to sensitivity. Also feeling a bit different during treatment, means my brain is reacting in some way.